Day 6: On the Road to Better Places...

Mk picked me up this morning and I said goodbye to my car, hopefully not for good (given the neighborhood) if so I'm insured. Just need to make sure and make that payment online on Friday *ties string to finger - spins string on finger decides to just try and remember*  we had such a day talking and driving and towards the end getting very goofy with road fatigue. It feels comfortable and I'm glad we are on this journey together. I am also glad how sacred we each hold our respected journeys and it's clear we are two travelers together in this but each having our own perception and individual experience out of it all. Conversation comes easy and I hope my many stores that I love telling help entertain our path. The whole experience has been fortuitous with clear signs, small but noticed, saying fate has our back and will carry us on the wave to have the experiences we were meant to have. Surrender is the only thing we need do and just let it happen.  

Later today... Saw my step mother and sister for the first time in 6 years. My step mother is in hospice with stage four cancer in multiple areas including her brain. It's hard to say we are close yet it's hard to say we're not either. She is my family and I am glad I got to see her and say my goodbyes. She might not be here another week yet it's virtually certain she won't make it through the Holidays. I'll miss her but I'll be glad for her too. I grew up in death. Family- wise I lost tons of people and relatives, pets, grandparents all when I was young and it never really bothered me all that much. 

When I was a teen I was told I had 10x the chance of getting skin cancer as the average person and when I started loosing moles and developing white patches I never told anyone I just assumed cancer and emanate death so I sort of face mortality a bit young. Turned out white spots and such are signs that I have e type of immune system  that fights off cancer  get halo moles after. Cool beans! Too bad my tactical nuke immune system also decided to eat my brain with my Multiple Sclerosis. I've even got to joke around and help my step mother over the phone with antidotes  and advice for some brain damage symptoms I've had that she's now facing. 

Silver lining time lol. Tonight we both had a good laugh at how shot our memory is now and how it's so much less stress to not have to fight with anyone about who said what when you have no means of remembering. You just accept others stories and apologize and move on...oh wells... It does make it hard to justify your decisions to people though when you can't tell someone why you do or don't like someone. In fact its lead more and more to me just trusting my intuition and instincts. I live almost exclusively in the now and I am happier for it.